I used to unleash a lot more than I do now. I'd run through parks late at night, letting out my inner animal to play, careening off trees and rocks as I raced through the dark. I'd saunter down busy thoroughfares with my posse, awake to the vibrancy of the world around and feeling like a god for being able to touch into that energy. I would turn the sound up on a song that particularly touched me and sing as loud as possible while moshing around my room. I would devise crazy impossible plans and actually follow through with them much to the amazement of people who didn't know me very well.
I don't really do anything like that anymore, and I'm not sure how to get back to that. I don't exactly suppress myself, any friend of mine will tell you I pretty much say and do what I want. There's just something deeper that I've lost touch with, my element. I've been trying to find it for a couple years now, I think I lost it in San Francisco...
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branchandroot
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Date: 2009-05-05 07:21 pm (UTC)I don't really do anything like that anymore, and I'm not sure how to get back to that. I don't exactly suppress myself, any friend of mine will tell you I pretty much say and do what I want. There's just something deeper that I've lost touch with, my element. I've been trying to find it for a couple years now, I think I lost it in San Francisco...