Unleashing is very hard for me. There has to be a lot of energy in the environment around me to even get me to a point where I want to...and then, typically, the second I start to act out of character, the urge just vanishes and I feel really stupid.

I can't do it around people who know me. Heck, when I was younger I couldn't stand to have anyone around when I practiced the piano. I just can't seem to break out of the "they're going to think I've gone mad and they'll never see me the same way again" mindset.

I used to unleash a little during martial arts, and I really miss that. People around me don't understand how a generally unruffled, pacifistic person such as myself could enjoy sparring, and I can't quite explain it. Something related to the thrill of the hunt, perhaps.