I could try that, but I'm kind of afraid of giving it any leeway at all. My ex is manipulative as hell, particularly this piece, and doesn't exactly have, uh, my best interests in heart. It's just....sick is the only word I have for it, and not in a way I feel can be fixed.

Not to mention I'll have to wait until I finish changing medication before I feel safe trying anything. I can't journey at the moment, I just lucid dream really well. It took over fifty dreams where I had an 'intrusion' of something definitely not a part of me, his energy specifically, take place, which almost always shatters the continuity of the dream in question. It gets odd and complicated, and I normally end up yelling at him to get the fuck out of my dreams.